bye bye LA LA

Yeah let me flip this shit. It’s like the world has turned itself inside out. Or is it me that flipping inside out? Someone else has taken over my body. I’m so numb to the lack of support from people I thought was on the same team as me. I turned 30 and gained a whole new perspective on this thang we call life. One moment, one situation, one incident, one conversation, one look, one action, one unspoken word, one thing can change it all. Your perspective. Damn, I never thought I would be dancing in the rain. Yet, I am. They say when it rain it pours. This running faucet of water is pouring on my locks and drenching my spirit. Cleansing me of the la la shit I’ve been on my whole life. You know, LA LA. Thinking the world is a warm and welcoming place. By the world, I don’t mean nature, because that’s where I find my balance. By world I mean the people in it. People are so full of hogwash. Yet I used to look thru my LA LA glasses and see smiles on the faces of people I know, I would feel comfort in knowing them, they would smile, I would smile back and be happy and comfortable in my la la place. Truth is, the LA LA glasses have been removed and I can clearly see that people truly don’t give a fuck. So what did I get for my 30th birthday? Thick skin. That was my born day present to myself. Thick, u can’t penetrate, u can’t get thru, u can’t affect, u can’t disappoint, thick brown skin. I’ll use the melanin that’s dancing beneath my surface of my thick skin as fuel to push thru the hogwash and get to the real. My pact to myself, tonight, this morning at 2:37 am on Sunday, July 30, 2006 is I’m a seeker of the REAL. Hogwash is no longer allowed within the walls of my temple. Mental, physical or otherwise.

Favorite line from underworld evolution:
“why would I listen to your lies, when the path to the truth is so much sweeter?”

road warrior

did i complain in a previous blog about gas being $3.09? i faintly remember that.

it's $3.39 a GALLON now -- in real life! and the rumor is...it's supposed to hit $4 by the end of the summer. for ONE (fill in the blank) gallon????!!!!!?????!!!!!

i understand BP made $7.3 BILLION in the last three months.

have u ever seen the road warrior?

therapy

walk slow.
rock new growth.
mold your mind,
beauty lives in the time.
unwind to the beat of your heart.
start fresh. take your time.
slow wind to the drummer on your land.
protect it.
soak up the best part.
charge your life within the realms of peace.
perfect it.
release the burden.
release the grief.
misery loves company.
i seek my company more.
explore happiness within its crevices.
let your soul explode.

where is your heart?

when people say, "don't wear your heart on your sleeve," what does that mean exactly? does it mean keep your heart inside your chest, where it's safe and protected?

i'm figuring if you wear your heart on your sleeve then, any and everybody can see it, bump into it, break it, get it dirty, abuse it, use it, and completely take it for granted.

is there really such a thing as being too open?

today is my 30th earth day

i was born 30 years ago today. funny how time flies when you're having fun. i'm definitely enjoying my freedom on the planet earth.

i breeze easy as i embrace my life in full bloom
zoom past the past as i take off into the eternity of this moment
caught dancing on the best part of the earth, as i explore it
adore it
sworn to the positive vibration
i adorn it with constant application

peace, love and respect!!!

single mother syndrome -- makes u wanna HOLLA!

there are entirely too many single mothers in the united states. why is that? do u think it could be a conspiracy?

most of the time, it starts with a so-called love connection with some male. after the (not even worth it most of the time) mating process. sperm penetrates the egg and KABOOM...a baby is going to be born in 9 months.

it's something how the phrase "mother's baby, daddy's maybe" is real. maybe it's because daddy has a choice. he can roll bounce or stick around. most times, though, it's the women that choose to go through with the labor and delivery, that HAVE TO DO MOST, IF NOT ALL of the parenting. every day she must make sure her child eats, plays, learns, grows, rests, and be safe at all times. from sunrise to sunrise. every day. ALL DAY AND NIGHT LONG. which is cool, because she did give birth to her precious child. it's just funny how a man can decide when or if he wants to spend time or not. even if he's not in a relationship with the mother, it still seems like he would want to spend as much time with his seed as possible. hell, what can be more important than spending time with your seed? especially, if that child doesn't live in your house. i just don't get it.

i guess there's a reason why the child spends the first 9 months of his life in the womb of his mother. could it have been preparing him for the real world?

peace love and balance!